Separation

So I finally did it. Kira now sleeps in her crib all the way across the house from my room. I know it really isn't that far but to me it seems like a mile. I have the baby monitor set up and I could possibly check it at least five times before I finally go to bed just in case it's not working. I know I know it's not going to miraculously stop working in a two minute time frame but I need to check it each time just so I can get some sleep. After I finally get myself into bed it still takes me about an hour to fall asleep just because I'm laying and just listening to her breath and if I don't think she's breathing right then of coarse I have to get up and walk that "mile" to go make sure she's okay. It was so much easier when she was in the same room with me for the first five months. (some people think that was five months to long) if I had it my way she would be sleeping with me for the first year but I know that is not good so I decided to take the "good mom" route and put her in her bed now before it became a problem when she was older and I actually wanted her in her room . Who knew that a mother could have a small separation anxiety just from having her baby in her own room. I seem to worry about every little thing that could happen while she's sleeping away from me. I'm very aware that the chance of anything actually happening are slim to none BUT I still have the fear in the back of my mind. People said parenting is not easy with the waking up for feedings and the crying and everything that you would expect from having a baby but nobody warned me of all the fears you would have for the safety of the baby. I still have the fears for Kale. When does it go away? When will you just be able to take breath and not have a worry in the world? Does it ever go away or is it just something you have to get used to? It's been six and a half years and I still have the fears for Kale and now Kira. Also is it just a mother thing to worry all the time? Jared seems to think I'm just paranoid. Maybe I am. I hope I'm not or don't turn into one of those mothers who holds my kids back just because of the very rare thing that could happen.